Hye there!
well, i'm 39 weeks and 3 days pregnant.How do i feel? Exhausted! uncomfortable!nauseas!headache (a terrible one)!grouchy!emoootionalll (this is due to the discomfort feeling of bloatedness) and so on and so forth.Despite of the eerie feeling of labor, i feel so excited! imagine the baby you're carrying inside your womb is finally going to make the first debut.I'm going to be a mother soon! Yay! :)
Today,i prepared few simple dishes for raya.As i was walking to my room,i suddenly feel a slight discomfort in my inner thigh...it's like something slimy sliding down.I quickly went into the toilet and checked.A mucus! my goodness!banyak pulak tu!but i didn't feel any pain at all.I washed my hands and sat down for a while.Was it a mucus plug? i don't know.I texted my sis in glasgow and asked her about it.She asked me if there's any blood or pinkish color on the mucus.I said No.She asked if there's any smell..and i answered No.My sis told me to be very careful coz i'm too close to labor and the baby can come out anytime soon.Dammit! i started to panic.I calmed myself and took a shower.I waited for awhile but there's no pain at all.So i guess,it is still not time yet.Then we got ready and went to visit my late father's grave.When we got back home i felt like all my energy being flushed out from my body.
I rested and slept for a while.
Mommy and sis farah will be coming back from hajj next week,on the 6th of dec.I can't wait to meet them with my little bum bum (a name i referred to my little precious).Eventhough mommy is not going to be there during my labor,at least i feel blessed and happy for her because she had accomplished what she's always wanted :).
i'm scared :(
Friday, November 27, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
Mommy's story part 22: 16 more friggin' days yo!
ok.first of all,sorry for the loooooooooooooooooooong hiatus.it's not like everybody reads my blog anyways.I was away for quite sometime due to my 'malas mode' to write a new post and also i was busy with work.Since mom and sis farah went to perform their hajj, i'm the one who has been handling all the cash flows,stock in and out,cheque issuance,employees affairs and so on and so forth.It is not as simple as working under a company.Having your own company can be a bit complicated and hectic at times because there are so many things to think about in order to maintain it.There are definitely pros and cons,so to speak.Well,i was pretty caught up with all that and when im too tired i operate from home and so, my mobile has been my best companion..haha! So far,alhamdulillah everything went smooth sailing all the way.I guess this week or next week,i'l be settling few more things before the handover.I hope i still have the strength to do so. I have 16 more days and i really hope i gave birth right on time.My exact EDD is on the 1st of Dec and according to the doctor it is normal to deliver a week earlier than the expected due date.I was ecstatic but worried at the same time.I heard,believe me,lots of things and even the ridiculous ones on pregnancy delivery.I tried so hard to stay positive and the more i tried the more nervous i get.
In less than a month i'll become a mom.The feeling is hard to describe.At 37 weeks, i start to urinate more often especially at night, i feel exhausted, my belly is getting huge!!!,i feel sleepy all the time and i don't feel good most of the time.My last appointment was on tuesday last week and my baby weigh at 2.81kg.And my next appointment is on tuesday next week.I hope everything is going to be just fine.I feel so blessed and thanks to Allah SWT for taking a good care of me and the baby.I don't have any gestational diabetes or high blood pressure,everything's just fine for me and the baby.
Well,i guess i have to log off now, i yawn like 5 to 6 times aleady.It's time to sleep and before i forgot:
to my dearest friend Juju; your big day is just around the corner, be happy and don't stress out too much,hilang seri nanti.Congrats to you and hafiz and i will aways pray for your happiness.May this wedding brings all the good things in your marriage.Take care! xoxo :)
ciao~!
In less than a month i'll become a mom.The feeling is hard to describe.At 37 weeks, i start to urinate more often especially at night, i feel exhausted, my belly is getting huge!!!,i feel sleepy all the time and i don't feel good most of the time.My last appointment was on tuesday last week and my baby weigh at 2.81kg.And my next appointment is on tuesday next week.I hope everything is going to be just fine.I feel so blessed and thanks to Allah SWT for taking a good care of me and the baby.I don't have any gestational diabetes or high blood pressure,everything's just fine for me and the baby.
Well,i guess i have to log off now, i yawn like 5 to 6 times aleady.It's time to sleep and before i forgot:
to my dearest friend Juju; your big day is just around the corner, be happy and don't stress out too much,hilang seri nanti.Congrats to you and hafiz and i will aways pray for your happiness.May this wedding brings all the good things in your marriage.Take care! xoxo :)
ciao~!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
A year now ...
My father...
he was a good father.A good father to us and a good husband.We all are very proud of him.He was a hardworking man and never even once he complaints or whines.He was always a loud and cheerful person,very friendly too.Whenever he goes, he make new friends.He loves to share his experiences in life with others and also a good listener for those who are in need of a good advice.We love him so much and misses him a lot.Without him, life is not the same.Our Hari Raya is not the same anymore...everything seems new and awkward with him nowhere in sight.
The memories of him will never fade.I knew i was a stubborn and rebellious child and i even said words that hurt him so much.I never meant it.It is just words slipped out from my mouth.I remembered hugging him and I said sorry for saying all those harsh words and he just kept quiet.And then when he walked away and i noticed a glimpse of tears flowing down from the corner of his eyes.I know i made a lot of mistakes and reggretted it.If only i can turn back time...but it is too late...
A year he left us and it seems like yesterday we sat on the new couch and took Hari Raya picture together.A year passes by so fast.I miss my dad...we miss him a lot.
"Ya Allah! Ampunkanlah dosanya dan tempatkanlah dia bersama dengan orang2 yang beriman.Kesihanilah arwah ayahandaku sepertimana dia mengasihani kami semasa kami kecil.Ya Allah! cucurilah rahmat ke atas rohnya.Amin!"
eventhough he has now gone far away, but he still remains close in our hearts...
he was a good father.A good father to us and a good husband.We all are very proud of him.He was a hardworking man and never even once he complaints or whines.He was always a loud and cheerful person,very friendly too.Whenever he goes, he make new friends.He loves to share his experiences in life with others and also a good listener for those who are in need of a good advice.We love him so much and misses him a lot.Without him, life is not the same.Our Hari Raya is not the same anymore...everything seems new and awkward with him nowhere in sight.
The memories of him will never fade.I knew i was a stubborn and rebellious child and i even said words that hurt him so much.I never meant it.It is just words slipped out from my mouth.I remembered hugging him and I said sorry for saying all those harsh words and he just kept quiet.And then when he walked away and i noticed a glimpse of tears flowing down from the corner of his eyes.I know i made a lot of mistakes and reggretted it.If only i can turn back time...but it is too late...
A year he left us and it seems like yesterday we sat on the new couch and took Hari Raya picture together.A year passes by so fast.I miss my dad...we miss him a lot.
"Ya Allah! Ampunkanlah dosanya dan tempatkanlah dia bersama dengan orang2 yang beriman.Kesihanilah arwah ayahandaku sepertimana dia mengasihani kami semasa kami kecil.Ya Allah! cucurilah rahmat ke atas rohnya.Amin!"
eventhough he has now gone far away, but he still remains close in our hearts...
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Mommy's story part 21: 31 weeks!!! wohooooooo!!!
In less than 2 months i am going to be a MOMMY! i'm so excited and i don't know how to desribe the exact feeling that i'm feeling right now.Despite of the back ache,fatigue,crampings...i'm happy!
It is going to be different after this.No more the two of us,it is going to e the three of us.I've selected few names for the baby but i still haven't narrow it down to one name yet.I guess to choose a name for a baby girl is harder than choosing a name for a baby boy.Anyways, i'm going to shop for baby clothes this weekend and few other things that i need after giving birth.My life's a bliss at the moment and i don't want to spoil it.I don't want any negativity to be around me.I don't want to waste my time dealing with it.
I hope everyting is okay...
It is going to be different after this.No more the two of us,it is going to e the three of us.I've selected few names for the baby but i still haven't narrow it down to one name yet.I guess to choose a name for a baby girl is harder than choosing a name for a baby boy.Anyways, i'm going to shop for baby clothes this weekend and few other things that i need after giving birth.My life's a bliss at the moment and i don't want to spoil it.I don't want any negativity to be around me.I don't want to waste my time dealing with it.
I hope everyting is okay...
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Mommy's story part 20: Why can't Malaysia be civilised?
The incident took place at HSBC,Kajang Prima.I double parked just beside the bank and i wasn't blocking any car that passes by.Well,it took mom less than 5 minutes to check her balance and i was holding baby yusuff at that time. After mom's done with checking her balances at the atm machine, we quickly went into the car.At this time,the road was so congested and i heard honking everywhere.Because other cars double parked as well at the other side,it made it even worst! There were cars stucked on my lane and they're waiting for me to move.I immediately drove to the other side of the road so that the car that were stucked just now can move.When the first car passed by my car i saw the middle aged lady were muttering something.Okay i got it,you're angry because you have to wait for like what?less than 3 minutes?I just ignored.This time a 4 wheeled car passed by and an Indian guy shouted 'BODOH!'at me.He is not young,maybe around 40 or so and he looks damn fierce wey! Padahal,just now i think he saw us,my mom,preggy me and baby yusuff.My point is, why do you have to shout so damn ugly like that? It is not like i park my car for hours...and is it necessary for you to be rude? what if someone shouted at your mom,your pregnant wife and your baby like that? how does that make you feel? I was terribly upset and mom console me by saying that people sometimes say harsh things without even thinking. And i know that stupid bloody indian man wasn't using his tiny brain to think. Maybe he is the one that's stupid.
I just hope Malaysian people can be more civilised so that we all can live harmoniously and peacefully with no stress or pressure.Malaysia is too small for us all to be rude to each other.In fact,Singaporean people are much more civilised.Shame on Malaysian people!
I just hope Malaysian people can be more civilised so that we all can live harmoniously and peacefully with no stress or pressure.Malaysia is too small for us all to be rude to each other.In fact,Singaporean people are much more civilised.Shame on Malaysian people!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Mommy's story part 19: BIOSELUSUH
bulan ni saje,2 orang yang ku kenali telah melahirkan cahaya mata yang sangat2 comel...a family friend gave birth to a cute little baby boy (her 6th child...ramai anak dia ni) and my ex-colleague in SCB gave birth to a cute baby boy too.Dua2 pun baby boy!
I still haven;t got the chance to visit my ex-colleague,Xandra.She's at home already and she said she needs 2 weeks to rest...so i told her i'm going to visit her after 2 weeks.
Visited Ummi, a family friend at her house in Ampang.Her baby is so cute and so tiny and soooooo fragile! jari2 kaki and tangan semuanyer kecil2...
We borak2 about pregnancy and bersalin tips.She told me about bioselusuh...very interesting and i'm going to try it.In fact bioselusuh is a combination of minyak kelapa+habattus sauda and apa lagi tu...dah terlupa plak.But it is very2 good since so many people have tried it before.According to Ummi,after taking bioselusuh,she gave birth easily and early plak tu.Supposedly she is dued next month 7th of october,tapi bersalin masa nuzul Al-quran plak.There's no side effect at all.Bioselusuh ni kira amalan semasa bersalin selain daripada membaca surah2 seperti yusuf,luqman,maryam and baqarah.Orang tua2 kata,kalau nak bersalin,minum minyak kelapa supaya senang sikit baby nak keluar and bau darah pun tak hanyir.I'm definitely going to try it nanti :)and as a first timer, for sure i want what's best for me and the baby....
I still haven;t got the chance to visit my ex-colleague,Xandra.She's at home already and she said she needs 2 weeks to rest...so i told her i'm going to visit her after 2 weeks.
Visited Ummi, a family friend at her house in Ampang.Her baby is so cute and so tiny and soooooo fragile! jari2 kaki and tangan semuanyer kecil2...
We borak2 about pregnancy and bersalin tips.She told me about bioselusuh...very interesting and i'm going to try it.In fact bioselusuh is a combination of minyak kelapa+habattus sauda and apa lagi tu...dah terlupa plak.But it is very2 good since so many people have tried it before.According to Ummi,after taking bioselusuh,she gave birth easily and early plak tu.Supposedly she is dued next month 7th of october,tapi bersalin masa nuzul Al-quran plak.There's no side effect at all.Bioselusuh ni kira amalan semasa bersalin selain daripada membaca surah2 seperti yusuf,luqman,maryam and baqarah.Orang tua2 kata,kalau nak bersalin,minum minyak kelapa supaya senang sikit baby nak keluar and bau darah pun tak hanyir.I'm definitely going to try it nanti :)and as a first timer, for sure i want what's best for me and the baby....
Friday, September 4, 2009
Mommy's story part 19: i'm 26 weeeeekkks!!! yeay!
I am proud to annouce that i am now 26 weeks.In two weeks time i'm going to be 7 months! yiepieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! how time flies ...
I'm actually more emotional during my 26 weeks and i'm trying so hard to control it which is very hard.My tail bone hurts so bad and it is because my belly is getting bigger.What else? ohhh...remember when i said that pimples started growing on my face...well it still does but thanks to the info i got on youtube about DIY face mask.I tried it and it works! I can feel the immediate difference from the first application and it is totally superb!!! My skin feel so smooth and the small annoying little pimples starts to disappear.WOW! apple cider vinegar really is a powerful ingredient and most important one i must say.
I can't believe it is going to be like what?less than 3 months i'm going to give birth! i am nervous,i do admit but i am also excited at the same time. I am very happy despite all the negativity that's been surrounding me (how some ignorant people make harsh comments and suggest stupid things and even assume things that is not logical at all...urghhh).I don't care and all i care now is to take care of myself and my baby and i even do a lot of research during my pregnancy.I tell you,it's a lot!!!You know,sometimes people is so annoying you jut hope and wish that you have a remote control to mute them off..haha..just like that movie 'CLICK'.To hell with all their stupidity and ignorant attitudes!
Oh!!! before i forgot...yesterday i was so shocked.I can feel my little baby is growing and kicking so hard,was it the elbow?hurrmmmm...anyways,my little baby kicked so hard i almost shouted (not in pain kind of way,but in shock kind of way).It is harder than before...naughty naughty baby,like to make mommy 'terkejut' only..hehe..muahhh to my cute baby!
i will update more soonnn :)
tooodddllesss.........
I'm actually more emotional during my 26 weeks and i'm trying so hard to control it which is very hard.My tail bone hurts so bad and it is because my belly is getting bigger.What else? ohhh...remember when i said that pimples started growing on my face...well it still does but thanks to the info i got on youtube about DIY face mask.I tried it and it works! I can feel the immediate difference from the first application and it is totally superb!!! My skin feel so smooth and the small annoying little pimples starts to disappear.WOW! apple cider vinegar really is a powerful ingredient and most important one i must say.
I can't believe it is going to be like what?less than 3 months i'm going to give birth! i am nervous,i do admit but i am also excited at the same time. I am very happy despite all the negativity that's been surrounding me (how some ignorant people make harsh comments and suggest stupid things and even assume things that is not logical at all...urghhh).I don't care and all i care now is to take care of myself and my baby and i even do a lot of research during my pregnancy.I tell you,it's a lot!!!You know,sometimes people is so annoying you jut hope and wish that you have a remote control to mute them off..haha..just like that movie 'CLICK'.To hell with all their stupidity and ignorant attitudes!
Oh!!! before i forgot...yesterday i was so shocked.I can feel my little baby is growing and kicking so hard,was it the elbow?hurrmmmm...anyways,my little baby kicked so hard i almost shouted (not in pain kind of way,but in shock kind of way).It is harder than before...naughty naughty baby,like to make mommy 'terkejut' only..hehe..muahhh to my cute baby!
i will update more soonnn :)
tooodddllesss.........
Monday, August 31, 2009
Mommy's story part 18: A cup of coffee would be nice...nice enough to stop my cravings for caffeine...
Selamat bersahur and berpuasa...
I want coffee but i know it is not good to drink coffee/caffeine during pregnancy...but just a sip or two, wouldn't do any harm to me.
Right at this moment i feel like i want to puke.I can feel a severe feling of heartburn and ooppss! i just farted..haha! believe me,for all of you out there who have not experience pregnancy before,one day you'll know.When you're pregnant you tend to fart a lot! and it is not very pleasant i tell you but when you're pregnant and you farted, it is very normal.My husband is trying to get use to me farting..haha! I love my husband a lot! he he.. :D
Constant urination is one of the very normal thing happens to pregnant moms.When you are pregnant, toilet is your best friend.As for me, i drink lots of fluid especially water and i don't drink soda/cordial or any sweet drinks during my pregnancy.I do drink milo or ribena once in a while.
Ciggies.Oh how i sometimes crave for that.For health reasons and this baby,i stop smoking.In fact,i don't really like the smell of ciggies during my pregnancy especially the smell of Dunhill/Marlboro red...
I just hope i have a strong will after i gave birth...
Back ache.This one sucks!it is so uncomfortable and tiring.I can hardly sleep at all sometimes and it makes me upset.
i guess that's all...hmmm..maybe i'll make a small cup of coffee during break fast today :)
I want coffee but i know it is not good to drink coffee/caffeine during pregnancy...but just a sip or two, wouldn't do any harm to me.
Right at this moment i feel like i want to puke.I can feel a severe feling of heartburn and ooppss! i just farted..haha! believe me,for all of you out there who have not experience pregnancy before,one day you'll know.When you're pregnant you tend to fart a lot! and it is not very pleasant i tell you but when you're pregnant and you farted, it is very normal.My husband is trying to get use to me farting..haha! I love my husband a lot! he he.. :D
Constant urination is one of the very normal thing happens to pregnant moms.When you are pregnant, toilet is your best friend.As for me, i drink lots of fluid especially water and i don't drink soda/cordial or any sweet drinks during my pregnancy.I do drink milo or ribena once in a while.
Ciggies.Oh how i sometimes crave for that.For health reasons and this baby,i stop smoking.In fact,i don't really like the smell of ciggies during my pregnancy especially the smell of Dunhill/Marlboro red...
I just hope i have a strong will after i gave birth...
Back ache.This one sucks!it is so uncomfortable and tiring.I can hardly sleep at all sometimes and it makes me upset.
i guess that's all...hmmm..maybe i'll make a small cup of coffee during break fast today :)
Mommy's story part 17: My bro-in-law went back to Glasgow & Merdeka
30/08/2009 Saturday
My bro-in-law went back to Glasgow.It is sad to see my sister & baby yusuff stood there saying their goodbyes to Feizal (my sister's husband).This time i think it's not going to be long coz my sister is going back to Glasgow before the year ends...after Raya most probably.*sigh*...our house will not be the same without baby yusuff's shrieks and laughters.We are going to miss that a lot! especially my mom coz she's quite close with baby yusuff (taking care of baby yusuff most of the time).I'm going to miss my sis and baby yusuff too,but i know they have a lot of things ahead of them that needed to be settled.Let them do whatever that's needed to be done and hopefully in 2 or 3 years time they'll be able to settle everything there and come back to Malaysia for good.
Here's some pictures that i took at the airport:
Today 31/08/2009 MERDEKA!
I don't know about you but to me it seems like Merdeka this year is not so 'meriah'.Maybe because it falls during the fasting month.I don't know.I thought it is going to be a blast out there.I don't have the feeling to celebrate Merdeka at all...don't get me wrong,it is not because i hate merdeka eve's or it is a cliche to celebrate Merdeka,i do appreciate Merdeka and because of my condition and the condition of the road and situation out there make me feel that its best to celebrate it at home.You know what i did, i watched movies on youtube with my husband and when the clock struck 12 midnight,we were like...ohh its merdeka and look outside the window to see if there's any big fireworks out there.We heard people shouting merdeka and i don't know what else...adalah.It is quiet...so quiet that it makes me wonder,is it Merdeka?
Oh and the merdeka advertisement this time sucks big time! Since our PM emphasizes on 1 Malaysia, i think they should at least inject the spirits of 1 malaysia into this year merdeka advertisment.The merdeka ad that i saw is so cliche and BORING.If yasmin ahmad was still alive,i bet the ad will be superb and memorable.
Well,i finished Surah Yusuf today and i'm so glad.We did 'tahlil' for our late father.Usually i will read surah Yasin everyday for my late father...may Allah SWT bless his soul..Amin.
Anyways,MERDEKA to all! and Salam Ramadhan...
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Mommy's story part 16: A very funny story (less important...)
I am absolutely thrilled to know a person who doesn't even realize their own fault.Well, they do admit it's theirs,but then again as usual, 1 finger pointing at them and the rest to the person who has done nothing but to help them.They do take things for granted,don't they? I don't want to elaborate much here.It is just enough to make me realize how some friends might turn to foe in a blink of an eye.As for me, a good friend will never do things to hurt a friend unless if that person has some kind of intention or simply want to run away from obligations.Some people take things way to easy they didn't even realize it.They are like "it's not me...it's them...it's not my fault..they should understand"...this kind of people is just a waste of time.Grow up and learn how to be responsible instead of asking charity from people.They expect people to understand them but they refuse to understand others.Takperlah, you want to do this,go ahead...you think you're being forced to explain when actually that's what you should do but refuse to,it's okay...you said that i accused you?of what?you should know better that it's true...come on,if you're in my place you'd do the same thing or maybe you're too busy thinking that it is us that should understand your condition?ohhh comeeee onnnn!!!give me a break!!!
i'm not the one who ruin this friendship.you're just a burden to us.You know what,i just want to be happy and you people are messing it.just fuck off and have a happy life ahead of you.I wish you good luck and all the best in whatever you do.I don't regret to lose a friend like you.
malas lah mo layan org mcm ni...a waste of time..again,i'll just do what i should do...no more compromise...
tata! :)
i'm not the one who ruin this friendship.you're just a burden to us.You know what,i just want to be happy and you people are messing it.just fuck off and have a happy life ahead of you.I wish you good luck and all the best in whatever you do.I don't regret to lose a friend like you.
malas lah mo layan org mcm ni...a waste of time..again,i'll just do what i should do...no more compromise...
tata! :)
Mommy's story part 16: Break Fast at Putrajaya Seafood Restaurant
Located at Taman Botani,the view and the landscape of the place is just enough to make one relax their mind while eating a scrumptous meal.I can say that this restaurant is suitable for family gathering,anniversary or a dinner for two for a couple to spend their time.We had few places in mind before we choose this place.Finally after a few thoughts, we voted out putrajaya seafood restaurant.
My sister, tiqah called and made a reservation for 7 pax.So,we weren't that worried if we came in late.Anyways,to make this story short,me,my hubby,mom and sis tiqah went there first while the rest came in later.
The food was yummy except for their tom yam.It's a bit of a turn off i may say.You should try the kangkong goreng belacan and stirred chicken with cashew nuts...it is simply delicious!We were served with 3 different kinds of drinks (orange juice,teh tarik and plain water).Oh wait...before we actually eat our meal,we decided to pray first but you know what, in their 'bilik sembahyang' there's no 'telekung' provided.I think they should at least place a set or two of 'telekung' for the convenience of their muslim customers.I ended up Qada' my maghrib because there's no telekung for me to wear.
Overall i can give a 7 out of 10.Seriously the tom yam tak sedap!
Later on we went home,got ready and off we went to Rambo's studio to take a family picture....
My sister, tiqah called and made a reservation for 7 pax.So,we weren't that worried if we came in late.Anyways,to make this story short,me,my hubby,mom and sis tiqah went there first while the rest came in later.
The food was yummy except for their tom yam.It's a bit of a turn off i may say.You should try the kangkong goreng belacan and stirred chicken with cashew nuts...it is simply delicious!We were served with 3 different kinds of drinks (orange juice,teh tarik and plain water).Oh wait...before we actually eat our meal,we decided to pray first but you know what, in their 'bilik sembahyang' there's no 'telekung' provided.I think they should at least place a set or two of 'telekung' for the convenience of their muslim customers.I ended up Qada' my maghrib because there's no telekung for me to wear.
Overall i can give a 7 out of 10.Seriously the tom yam tak sedap!
Later on we went home,got ready and off we went to Rambo's studio to take a family picture....
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Mommy's story part 15: Detail scan..done
I wasn't in the right mood today.Well,last night i slept quite late and woke up quite early.I had 4 hours of sleeping and that makes my mood even worse.I was feeling very sleepy this morning.
Today is my appointment for the Detail Scan.Honestly,i was feeling neither nervous nor happy.Must be because i only slept for 4 hours.Okay,anyways,the appointment's at 9a.m and around 8 a.m,believe it or not,i was still on the bed with my laptop,too lazy to take a shower.I felt like i want to just lie on the bed,browsing the net or sleep.My hubby,my dearest dearest hubby thought the appointment was on friday and guess what,he didn't inform the human resource people that he'll be taking a day off today.I already told him the appointment is on the 26th of August and he simply thought it was on friday.He said,i'm the one who told him it's on friday...yada yada yada...whatever lah sayang.Well,maybe i said it's on friday...hmm i can't really recall.My hubby had to go and see them today to pass the photostated appointment card to them and filled in the leave form with it attached to it.My hubby even went to see his GM to get his signature of approval.If he had informed about it earlier,he wouldn't have to go through all the hassle.Anyways,it is not a big a deal pun.
So,my hubby drove us (me and my mom) to Az-Zahrah in Bangi.The weather was so calm today.Very windy as if it's about to rain but it's not.That's what i call a lovely day!We reached there around 9:15am and there were no parking space available.My hubby dropped us off and he went looking for available parking space.Me and my mom went straight up to the first floor and registered for the appointment.
The queue was tremendously long.So many preggers were there sitting and waiting for their turns.Some i saw were talking to their husbands,some are just too lazy to talk and watch the tele instead,others are either sleeping or staring blankly at everyone who passes by or reading the newspaper.
Not long after that i called my husband and he said he had parked the car and he's heading to where we were now.I hung up and waved at mom,giving her a signal to sit beside me.
Well,since i wasn't in the mood to talk neither to do anything else (like there's anything for me to do there),i took a short nap.
Then,after a long wait,finally the nurse called my name.All the three of us went inside the doctor's room and to my surprise,it's not Dr.Noraini but Dr.Ensen (i think i spelled it wrongly but who cares anyways,it still sounds the same).The detail scan took less than 30 minutes i think.The detail scan is actually to check whether the baby has any complications involving the heart,kidney and so on and so forth.It was a wonderful experience.I saw my own baby and the face has already fully formed.What a lovely lovely baby.We counted the baby's fingers and toes.Syukur alhamdulillah everything is okay.The doctor even measured the eye distance,head,thigh and other parts of the baby's body.I can even see the baby moves and i tell you,the baby is moving around all the time.Such an active baby and i love my cute little baby to bits.Can't wait to hold my baby in my own arms.
I got a surprise from the doctor.She told me Dr.Noraini may wrongly determine the EDD (expected due date) for my delivery.After a thorough check up from Dr.Ensen it is now confirmed that i'm going to give birth on the 1st of December this year.WOW!!! 3 more months!!! :) i'm so excited!!! Because i'm too excited i forgot to ask the doctor about what she meant by my placenta is too low?I don't know whether this is normal or not or is it harmful to me?i guess i have to see Dr.Noraini and ask her about it on my next appointment which is on the 15th of sept.
After th check up we went straight home.I told them i'm too lazy to follow them to the 'pasar' and let my hubby and mom jer yg pergi.and i asked my hubby to buy me a McDonald-double cheese burger :) he he...harini tak puasa ler ;P
that's all for today...more updates to come
tooodddllesss!
Today is my appointment for the Detail Scan.Honestly,i was feeling neither nervous nor happy.Must be because i only slept for 4 hours.Okay,anyways,the appointment's at 9a.m and around 8 a.m,believe it or not,i was still on the bed with my laptop,too lazy to take a shower.I felt like i want to just lie on the bed,browsing the net or sleep.My hubby,my dearest dearest hubby thought the appointment was on friday and guess what,he didn't inform the human resource people that he'll be taking a day off today.I already told him the appointment is on the 26th of August and he simply thought it was on friday.He said,i'm the one who told him it's on friday...yada yada yada...whatever lah sayang.Well,maybe i said it's on friday...hmm i can't really recall.My hubby had to go and see them today to pass the photostated appointment card to them and filled in the leave form with it attached to it.My hubby even went to see his GM to get his signature of approval.If he had informed about it earlier,he wouldn't have to go through all the hassle.Anyways,it is not a big a deal pun.
So,my hubby drove us (me and my mom) to Az-Zahrah in Bangi.The weather was so calm today.Very windy as if it's about to rain but it's not.That's what i call a lovely day!We reached there around 9:15am and there were no parking space available.My hubby dropped us off and he went looking for available parking space.Me and my mom went straight up to the first floor and registered for the appointment.
The queue was tremendously long.So many preggers were there sitting and waiting for their turns.Some i saw were talking to their husbands,some are just too lazy to talk and watch the tele instead,others are either sleeping or staring blankly at everyone who passes by or reading the newspaper.
Not long after that i called my husband and he said he had parked the car and he's heading to where we were now.I hung up and waved at mom,giving her a signal to sit beside me.
Well,since i wasn't in the mood to talk neither to do anything else (like there's anything for me to do there),i took a short nap.
Then,after a long wait,finally the nurse called my name.All the three of us went inside the doctor's room and to my surprise,it's not Dr.Noraini but Dr.Ensen (i think i spelled it wrongly but who cares anyways,it still sounds the same).The detail scan took less than 30 minutes i think.The detail scan is actually to check whether the baby has any complications involving the heart,kidney and so on and so forth.It was a wonderful experience.I saw my own baby and the face has already fully formed.What a lovely lovely baby.We counted the baby's fingers and toes.Syukur alhamdulillah everything is okay.The doctor even measured the eye distance,head,thigh and other parts of the baby's body.I can even see the baby moves and i tell you,the baby is moving around all the time.Such an active baby and i love my cute little baby to bits.Can't wait to hold my baby in my own arms.
I got a surprise from the doctor.She told me Dr.Noraini may wrongly determine the EDD (expected due date) for my delivery.After a thorough check up from Dr.Ensen it is now confirmed that i'm going to give birth on the 1st of December this year.WOW!!! 3 more months!!! :) i'm so excited!!! Because i'm too excited i forgot to ask the doctor about what she meant by my placenta is too low?I don't know whether this is normal or not or is it harmful to me?i guess i have to see Dr.Noraini and ask her about it on my next appointment which is on the 15th of sept.
After th check up we went straight home.I told them i'm too lazy to follow them to the 'pasar' and let my hubby and mom jer yg pergi.and i asked my hubby to buy me a McDonald-double cheese burger :) he he...harini tak puasa ler ;P
that's all for today...more updates to come
tooodddllesss!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Mommy's story part 14: i can feel the kicking is getting stronger (24 weeks a.k.a 6 months)
My dearest baby in my belly is moving quite frequently now.The kicking is getting stronger and stronger each day and i tell you, i'm so excited i nearly cried.This is the joy of being pregnant.You'd be able to feel your own little baby inside your womb.Eventhough it can be sucks at times coz i have to deal with all the pains but you know what, it worth every pains.
Currently, i do feel the tightening under my belly and that's because my belly is getting bigger.I can see visible stretch marks (dammit!)on my belly and i'm religiously applying palmer body lotion all over my belly to make the stretch marks look less visible. My back aches a lot!!! plus my buttocks too!!! Pimples starts growing on my cheeks.Not that 'teruk' pun but still it upsets me.I feel so tired all the time,hungry and sleepy too bacause my little baby needs all the nutrients for the rapid growth.It is Ramadhan and after i made few researches, i feel it is safe to go on fasting (selagi larat).It's day 2 of fasting and so far so good.What else? oh yeah, i got very sensitive as in very very sensitive until up to a point it bothers me a lot.i'm very emotional and yes, i do cry a lot during this pregnancy.It is not that easy to cope with your emotional instability.I have thought of this and that and how ones word affect me tremendously.There were times (before i reach the 2o weeks)i just feel like i don't want to get pregnant and want to get rid of this baby.it is sad,but that's what i've had gone through.Those were just me being emotional.Eventhough i didn't have a terrible morning sickness like puking every single minute/hour,i do get very tired and emotional.Some said, oh you're so lucky you didn't have to get all fussed up with vomits and all...yes i am lucky but trust me,it is hard to deal with emotion that swings like a bloody hurricane! Anyways,i love this baby to bits and won't do anything to harm this gift from Allah SWT in my belly.In fact i am soooooooo excited to meet my baby this december :).
My hubby just told me that he wants to go back for a day to visit his granny in melaka during fasting time.I don't know,i just hope the weather is just right...not too hot.I am very tamperamental and grouchy during hot days...
Well,i'm going to update again when i reach week 25 alright.
till then peeps...
toodlllessss.......
Currently, i do feel the tightening under my belly and that's because my belly is getting bigger.I can see visible stretch marks (dammit!)on my belly and i'm religiously applying palmer body lotion all over my belly to make the stretch marks look less visible. My back aches a lot!!! plus my buttocks too!!! Pimples starts growing on my cheeks.Not that 'teruk' pun but still it upsets me.I feel so tired all the time,hungry and sleepy too bacause my little baby needs all the nutrients for the rapid growth.It is Ramadhan and after i made few researches, i feel it is safe to go on fasting (selagi larat).It's day 2 of fasting and so far so good.What else? oh yeah, i got very sensitive as in very very sensitive until up to a point it bothers me a lot.i'm very emotional and yes, i do cry a lot during this pregnancy.It is not that easy to cope with your emotional instability.I have thought of this and that and how ones word affect me tremendously.There were times (before i reach the 2o weeks)i just feel like i don't want to get pregnant and want to get rid of this baby.it is sad,but that's what i've had gone through.Those were just me being emotional.Eventhough i didn't have a terrible morning sickness like puking every single minute/hour,i do get very tired and emotional.Some said, oh you're so lucky you didn't have to get all fussed up with vomits and all...yes i am lucky but trust me,it is hard to deal with emotion that swings like a bloody hurricane! Anyways,i love this baby to bits and won't do anything to harm this gift from Allah SWT in my belly.In fact i am soooooooo excited to meet my baby this december :).
My hubby just told me that he wants to go back for a day to visit his granny in melaka during fasting time.I don't know,i just hope the weather is just right...not too hot.I am very tamperamental and grouchy during hot days...
Well,i'm going to update again when i reach week 25 alright.
till then peeps...
toodlllessss.......
Friday, August 21, 2009
Mommy's story part 13: I love my dear Mommy
You know, i'm quite fragile during this pregnancy.I'm easily moved,hurt...etc.It is not easy to be a mom especially when during pregnancy.There's so many obstacles that you have to face; either it is from the stupid judgement from certain shallow minded people or the cramps or the cravings or the rapid increase in weight or etc etc...*sigh* it is a TOUGH job indeed!
I called it a CHALLENGE.A tough one! and i have to face it all alone. There were times when i was so sad i nearly felt like crying. It is not easy.Yesterday, during my beloved nephew's aqiqah, one of our close relative came up to me and said "You are a perfect woman when you're pregnant and a mother".Her words means a lot to me.Plus she's a mother of 5. A mother is a blessing from Allah S.W.T and so does a child.I'm blessed to have a mother like my own mother now; despite the quarells,arguments, i still love her very much.
I know how lonely and sad she is after my late father passed away.I'd give everything as long as my mother feels happy.And i'd do anything to make sure of that.
-to be continued-
I called it a CHALLENGE.A tough one! and i have to face it all alone. There were times when i was so sad i nearly felt like crying. It is not easy.Yesterday, during my beloved nephew's aqiqah, one of our close relative came up to me and said "You are a perfect woman when you're pregnant and a mother".Her words means a lot to me.Plus she's a mother of 5. A mother is a blessing from Allah S.W.T and so does a child.I'm blessed to have a mother like my own mother now; despite the quarells,arguments, i still love her very much.
I know how lonely and sad she is after my late father passed away.I'd give everything as long as my mother feels happy.And i'd do anything to make sure of that.
-to be continued-
Monday, August 10, 2009
Mommy's story part 12: Charisma
Hello peeps,
I stumbled upon a very interesting video by TEDxKL and that is a speech given by Yasmin Ahmad.
I stumbled upon a very interesting video by TEDxKL and that is a speech given by Yasmin Ahmad.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Mommy's story part 10: just like old times
Dear blog,
today like any other uninteresting day, i waited for my husband to come back from work. It is a usual routine for me to wait for him to come back. At least during pregnancy. Well, we went to KL..yada yada yada....nothing much to tell.
Anyways, i had plans to meet up with my old mate from school today. She's going to drop by after attending a wedding ceremony held in Saujana Impian,Kajang. Unfortunately, she wrongly read the time of the event.Instead of noon ,it is actually in the evening.She texted me and suggested to meet up around 10 pm and i decided to chat at my place coz tak larat nak keluar malam2 ni.
It's been quite some time i didn't meet up with her...almost a year i think.The last time we met was during my wedding reception. Well, we did some catch ups and it reminds me of our old times when we used to be roommates. Some news came to me as a shock and some i found it earlier on the net or by some friends.
It's 1 am and it's too late already to continue our chit chats since my hubby pun dah ngantuk2 tunggu (dia risau and tak nak i kunci pintu and set alarm sorang2). We said our goodbyes and made another plan to meet up some other day lagi......
today like any other uninteresting day, i waited for my husband to come back from work. It is a usual routine for me to wait for him to come back. At least during pregnancy. Well, we went to KL..yada yada yada....nothing much to tell.
Anyways, i had plans to meet up with my old mate from school today. She's going to drop by after attending a wedding ceremony held in Saujana Impian,Kajang. Unfortunately, she wrongly read the time of the event.Instead of noon ,it is actually in the evening.She texted me and suggested to meet up around 10 pm and i decided to chat at my place coz tak larat nak keluar malam2 ni.
It's been quite some time i didn't meet up with her...almost a year i think.The last time we met was during my wedding reception. Well, we did some catch ups and it reminds me of our old times when we used to be roommates. Some news came to me as a shock and some i found it earlier on the net or by some friends.
It's 1 am and it's too late already to continue our chit chats since my hubby pun dah ngantuk2 tunggu (dia risau and tak nak i kunci pintu and set alarm sorang2). We said our goodbyes and made another plan to meet up some other day lagi......
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Mommy's story part 8: The life itself...
Dear blog,
what life has to offer us?our life is too short for our needs and wants.I'd rather spend the rest of my life worry-free than fret out of nothing at all. Appreciate life as how life has appreciate us. Some people may curse life and said life sucks.Is it fair to blame it on life itself rather than themself? i did once cursed my fate and wish i can be re-borned again. I was being selfish and immature back then. I wasted partial of my life doing absolutely nothing and yes, i do regret it a lot until now.
And now, as life presents the most beautiful thing ever in front of my eyes, i feel very blessed. Thank you Allah S.W.T for everything that you have given me. Eventhough there were times when i was so angry and one of the reason was because You have taken the person we all adored and loved. With just short notice you took him away from us forever. We are mortals and every mortals has to go back to where they belong to someday. I do understand that and I have to be 'redha' with everything that you have planned for us and i know there's always 'hikmah' behind every plans that you've made. But me,as a normal human being who have feelings and sometimes too over driven with emotions tend to disobey You but never ever turn my back against you.
Anyway, at this moment, i can feel the tiny kick(s) in my belly. Every tiny kick(s) i felt in my belly makes me smile and overjoyed with endless love. I had an appointment with my gynae today,Dr.Noraini, and to my surprise i am now 22 weeks! how time flies.I still remembered when i first found out about my pregnancy, i was quite shocked actually and it seems like yesterday i got to know about it. Never in my mind occured that i'm going to be pregnant this soon. It's like 3 months after our wedding! But i feel very blessed and 'bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi' for this wonderful gift. This wonderful gift doesn't come easy you know.You have to deal with a lot of emotional swings,morning sickness,sloppiness and etc etc which is very uncomfortable and common. I remembered feeling angry and happy at the same time, crying with no reason at all, worrying about things that i shouldn't be worrying and loads of other things that some people may find it awkward. Some may not understand how the pregnant women feel(s). I tell you, it is not that easy and a tough task(s) to deal with. All that will go away when you feel the light tingling sensation in your belly (kicks). It's undescribable.I can feel the kicking getting stronger and stronger each month. i'm too excited to meet with my dear baby this December.Wish me all the best yah *winks* ;)
Well, the life itself has a lot to offer. Embrace it and make a full use of it coz life is too short for too many decisions on how to handle your own life. Grab the opprtunity and turn it into something worthy!
what life has to offer us?our life is too short for our needs and wants.I'd rather spend the rest of my life worry-free than fret out of nothing at all. Appreciate life as how life has appreciate us. Some people may curse life and said life sucks.Is it fair to blame it on life itself rather than themself? i did once cursed my fate and wish i can be re-borned again. I was being selfish and immature back then. I wasted partial of my life doing absolutely nothing and yes, i do regret it a lot until now.
And now, as life presents the most beautiful thing ever in front of my eyes, i feel very blessed. Thank you Allah S.W.T for everything that you have given me. Eventhough there were times when i was so angry and one of the reason was because You have taken the person we all adored and loved. With just short notice you took him away from us forever. We are mortals and every mortals has to go back to where they belong to someday. I do understand that and I have to be 'redha' with everything that you have planned for us and i know there's always 'hikmah' behind every plans that you've made. But me,as a normal human being who have feelings and sometimes too over driven with emotions tend to disobey You but never ever turn my back against you.
Anyway, at this moment, i can feel the tiny kick(s) in my belly. Every tiny kick(s) i felt in my belly makes me smile and overjoyed with endless love. I had an appointment with my gynae today,Dr.Noraini, and to my surprise i am now 22 weeks! how time flies.I still remembered when i first found out about my pregnancy, i was quite shocked actually and it seems like yesterday i got to know about it. Never in my mind occured that i'm going to be pregnant this soon. It's like 3 months after our wedding! But i feel very blessed and 'bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi' for this wonderful gift. This wonderful gift doesn't come easy you know.You have to deal with a lot of emotional swings,morning sickness,sloppiness and etc etc which is very uncomfortable and common. I remembered feeling angry and happy at the same time, crying with no reason at all, worrying about things that i shouldn't be worrying and loads of other things that some people may find it awkward. Some may not understand how the pregnant women feel(s). I tell you, it is not that easy and a tough task(s) to deal with. All that will go away when you feel the light tingling sensation in your belly (kicks). It's undescribable.I can feel the kicking getting stronger and stronger each month. i'm too excited to meet with my dear baby this December.Wish me all the best yah *winks* ;)
Well, the life itself has a lot to offer. Embrace it and make a full use of it coz life is too short for too many decisions on how to handle your own life. Grab the opprtunity and turn it into something worthy!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Mommy's story Part 7: Updates (22nd - 26th of june) and HAPPY BIRTHDAY Sayang!!! xoxo
Dear blog,
since i tak update what had happened for the last few days...here goes:
22/6/2009
Aza got admitted at the Hospital Ampang in Pandan Indah. She texted me to tell me which ward she's in.I then, called her to make sure the location of the hospital
23/06/2009
Me and hubby went to visit Aza that late afternoon. We bought chocolates for her but unfortunately she's not able to take any food unless it's in liquid form.Anyway, the hospital isn't that far. And the saddest damn thing is, the signboard is quite hidden and if you didn't ask around, sure you'll get lost. I really hope Aza get well soon. The C-section memanglah leceh.You have to pantang a lot and if you don't pantang, sure you'll regret it. And you have to rest jer for nearly a month or so...it depends on how fast it heals. I think Aza memang sure kena admit lama sikit. Hope she'll get better soon.
26/06/2009
I went to see Dr.Noraini today because of thrush. The itchiness on the private part cause by the antibiotic for urine infection. Just right after i finish all my antibiotics pills, i started to feel the itchiness. It's very uncomfortable and what i did was to clean thoroughly after every time i peed and towel it dry. I thought by doing so, the sores will heal on its own.I was wrong.It gets itchier and this mornng i couldn't stand it anymore and went to see the doctor.Dr.Noraini said, this thrush is normal. Tapi still the doctor nak check the baby, whether my baby okay or tak. I saw my dearest baby dancing in my womb. It is the sweetest thing ever that i've seen. Then the doctor said my baby's okay.After few Q&A's with the doctor, we all pun gerak from the hospital to Metro Point.Had lunch with Sabrina (moms friend from public bank) at the kopitiam.....................................................................
since i tak update what had happened for the last few days...here goes:
22/6/2009
Aza got admitted at the Hospital Ampang in Pandan Indah. She texted me to tell me which ward she's in.I then, called her to make sure the location of the hospital
23/06/2009
Me and hubby went to visit Aza that late afternoon. We bought chocolates for her but unfortunately she's not able to take any food unless it's in liquid form.Anyway, the hospital isn't that far. And the saddest damn thing is, the signboard is quite hidden and if you didn't ask around, sure you'll get lost. I really hope Aza get well soon. The C-section memanglah leceh.You have to pantang a lot and if you don't pantang, sure you'll regret it. And you have to rest jer for nearly a month or so...it depends on how fast it heals. I think Aza memang sure kena admit lama sikit. Hope she'll get better soon.
26/06/2009
I went to see Dr.Noraini today because of thrush. The itchiness on the private part cause by the antibiotic for urine infection. Just right after i finish all my antibiotics pills, i started to feel the itchiness. It's very uncomfortable and what i did was to clean thoroughly after every time i peed and towel it dry. I thought by doing so, the sores will heal on its own.I was wrong.It gets itchier and this mornng i couldn't stand it anymore and went to see the doctor.Dr.Noraini said, this thrush is normal. Tapi still the doctor nak check the baby, whether my baby okay or tak. I saw my dearest baby dancing in my womb. It is the sweetest thing ever that i've seen. Then the doctor said my baby's okay.After few Q&A's with the doctor, we all pun gerak from the hospital to Metro Point.Had lunch with Sabrina (moms friend from public bank) at the kopitiam.....................................................................
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Mommy's story Part 6: Tahlil
Dear blog,
I'm exhausted and not in the mood to mingle around (have to mingle jugak,since 'terpaksa').Tahlil went smoothly and quite a number of people showed up. My back hurts and my left thigh too. I can feel small vibrations on my belly. I'm happy every single time i feel the vibrations.I can't wait till my belly is bigger and for this cute lovely little precious baby to come out. :-)
we got back quite late today. As usual, nak balik jer after saying our good bye's,masih lagi tersangkut tak balik coz biasalah,nak balik jer macam2 pulak yang nak diceritakan.Anyways, masa nak balik, sempat pulak the hubby of my late Wawak cerita pasal business...told us to buy the bunting laa..bla bla bla. (time ni i wasn't concentrating at all to what he's talking, i'm tired and i want to go home). I absolutely have no mood at all to listen to all that at this moment. Whatever-lah!
Well,we managed to escape at last. .................................
I'm exhausted and not in the mood to mingle around (have to mingle jugak,since 'terpaksa').Tahlil went smoothly and quite a number of people showed up. My back hurts and my left thigh too. I can feel small vibrations on my belly. I'm happy every single time i feel the vibrations.I can't wait till my belly is bigger and for this cute lovely little precious baby to come out. :-)
we got back quite late today. As usual, nak balik jer after saying our good bye's,masih lagi tersangkut tak balik coz biasalah,nak balik jer macam2 pulak yang nak diceritakan.Anyways, masa nak balik, sempat pulak the hubby of my late Wawak cerita pasal business...told us to buy the bunting laa..bla bla bla. (time ni i wasn't concentrating at all to what he's talking, i'm tired and i want to go home). I absolutely have no mood at all to listen to all that at this moment. Whatever-lah!
Well,we managed to escape at last. .................................
Monday, June 15, 2009
Mommy's story Part 5: Innalillah.....
Dear blog,
Wawak passed away at 2:30 a.m today 15/06/09.Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat oleh Allah S.W.T...Al-Fatihah...
Wawak passed away at 2:30 a.m today 15/06/09.Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat oleh Allah S.W.T...Al-Fatihah...
Mommy's story Part 4: Sad...
Dear blog,
I can't help myself but burst to tears when i saw Wawak lying on the bed motionless. I knew deep down inside that she can't make it this time. The Wawak i knew, never quit without struggling. But this time, it's her time. She's a fighter tapi Allah S.W.T mungkin lebih menyayangi dia. Aku duduk di kerusi sebelah katil Wawak dan terus baca surah Yasin. At this point of time, there's nothing anyone can do except for praying. Setiap kematian adalah dugaan bagi yang masih hidup di dunia ini....
But...
some people expect miracles to happen.They refuse to accept the reality even though dah terpampang depan mata.Siapa yang boleh terima bila seseorang yang kita sayang pergi buat selama2nya? No one. Tapi sebagai umat Islam, kita kena redha. Walau pahit mana sekalipun, kita harus telan.
When i was there, i had few chats with some of my relatives and kebanyakannya kata yang Wawak punya condition improves, her heart beat dah normal..this and that. But the fact is (Abang Putra told us the truth what the doctor have told him about Wawak's condition), Wawak is not improving at all. They all said that just to comfort themselves and they refused to understand. I can't blame them for that. Bila diorang kata macam tu jer, aku pun just nod and kept quiet. I just don't want to hurt them by telling them the truth about Wawak's condition coz i don't want to create any misunderstanding, even Abang Putra was being accused of wanting her own mother to pass away earlier because Abang Putra dah carikan tapak perkuburan untuk Wawak. Hmmm..they're just too sad and confused.
Aku pun tak tahu nak kata apa.Hari ni masuk hari ke-2 Wawak survive on life support machine. The doctor told abang putra that without the life support wawak mungkin tak akan dapat survive..and for them to cabut the life support pun kena ada consent from Wawak's husband. I'm very very sad because aku tak mahu wawak terseksa lagi....let her go peacefully...
date: 14/06/09 ...
I can't help myself but burst to tears when i saw Wawak lying on the bed motionless. I knew deep down inside that she can't make it this time. The Wawak i knew, never quit without struggling. But this time, it's her time. She's a fighter tapi Allah S.W.T mungkin lebih menyayangi dia. Aku duduk di kerusi sebelah katil Wawak dan terus baca surah Yasin. At this point of time, there's nothing anyone can do except for praying. Setiap kematian adalah dugaan bagi yang masih hidup di dunia ini....
But...
some people expect miracles to happen.They refuse to accept the reality even though dah terpampang depan mata.Siapa yang boleh terima bila seseorang yang kita sayang pergi buat selama2nya? No one. Tapi sebagai umat Islam, kita kena redha. Walau pahit mana sekalipun, kita harus telan.
When i was there, i had few chats with some of my relatives and kebanyakannya kata yang Wawak punya condition improves, her heart beat dah normal..this and that. But the fact is (Abang Putra told us the truth what the doctor have told him about Wawak's condition), Wawak is not improving at all. They all said that just to comfort themselves and they refused to understand. I can't blame them for that. Bila diorang kata macam tu jer, aku pun just nod and kept quiet. I just don't want to hurt them by telling them the truth about Wawak's condition coz i don't want to create any misunderstanding, even Abang Putra was being accused of wanting her own mother to pass away earlier because Abang Putra dah carikan tapak perkuburan untuk Wawak. Hmmm..they're just too sad and confused.
Aku pun tak tahu nak kata apa.Hari ni masuk hari ke-2 Wawak survive on life support machine. The doctor told abang putra that without the life support wawak mungkin tak akan dapat survive..and for them to cabut the life support pun kena ada consent from Wawak's husband. I'm very very sad because aku tak mahu wawak terseksa lagi....let her go peacefully...
date: 14/06/09 ...
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Mommy's story Part 3: The bad news...and i'm confused
Dear blog,
ok,here's the part we all got so confused...
We arrived, i think at approximately 8:30 p.m. We parked outside Wawak's house and to our surprise there's no one around. (we were outside masa time ni). Anyways, we just went in because we thought that we might be late kot, and all of them dah pergi ke kubur. Through the sliding door we saw Ismanidar and her husband sitting on the carpet,talking (more like discussing). I knocked the sliding door and her husband immediately opens it.We greeted each other and then baru lah kami tahu perkara yang sebenarnya beberapa jam selepas itu...(walaupun cerita tu bunyinya samar2)
Wawak's still alive (but with the help of the life support machine) !!!
Perkara yang sebenarnya terjadi...(sources from my own relatives,hopefully no tokok tambah lah,but then i got the info from the most reliable resources-Abang Putra (Wawak's 3rd son,itupun after i met him later di UH))
Ok,here goes...
Wawak refused to eat her lunch and Kak Mariani let her rest alone in the room.She checked every 30 minutes to make sure that Wawak is okay . But when she checked on Wawak for the 3rd time, Wawak seem to be very quiet and when Kak Mariani tengok betul2 dah ada buih kat mulut Wawak and badan dia kejang. They immediately called the hospital and Wawak was sent to the University Hospital (this part i'm not very sure whether Wawak were sent to the hospital by ambulance or car...ada yang kata mcm ni and mcm tu).Anyways, according to Abang Putra, Wawak's heart beat stopped for 8 minutes before she was helped by the life support machine.
I honestly think her time has come ...
Berbalik pada part kami sampai di rumah Wawak.
Me,my hubby.natrah and my sis's in-laws stayed at Wawak's house while Mommy and the rest went to the hospital.I was exhausted+sad+confused+curious.At that time, nak jer aku pergi hospital but they told me no need to go since it was late at night and i'm pregnant. Aku pun stay jer and baca surah Yassin. Macam2 speculation i heard from people and it makes me even more curious to know what the hell is going on.I was quite pissed actually. Few hours later, mommy and the rest dah balik dari UH. We said our goodbyes (time ni dah pukul 12:30 a.m) and headed straight home.
Friday, June 12, 2009
Mommy's story Part 2 : My little baby first photo
Dear blog,
after a not-so-long chat i had with my mom, we then went to Az-Zahrah hospital for my appointment with Dr.Noraini. We both thought that if we arrive early, tak ramai sangat orang queuing,but we were both wrong.We arrived at 9:05 a.m (my appointment supposedly at 10 a.m) and to our surprise, dah ramai yg tunggu. I wonder what time drg ni sampai.
While waiting for my turn, me and my mom borak-borak sambil belek-belek todays newspaper.Not long after that, they called me in (it's 9:45 am).I was quite nervous coz today they're going to give me the blood test result. Dr.Noraini explained to me few things about the test and I am so "bersyukur" that everything is okay. Alhamdulillah.
Then the doctor asked me if i want the baby pic and i said "yes"... my little baby is sooooo tiny. My baby's sex? belum nampak lagi. Maybe when i'm 20 weeks pregnant baru nampak kot. Currently i'm at 14 weeks...2 more weeks to 4 months..hehe.
*pic:gonna upload it later*
after a not-so-long chat i had with my mom, we then went to Az-Zahrah hospital for my appointment with Dr.Noraini. We both thought that if we arrive early, tak ramai sangat orang queuing,but we were both wrong.We arrived at 9:05 a.m (my appointment supposedly at 10 a.m) and to our surprise, dah ramai yg tunggu. I wonder what time drg ni sampai.
While waiting for my turn, me and my mom borak-borak sambil belek-belek todays newspaper.Not long after that, they called me in (it's 9:45 am).I was quite nervous coz today they're going to give me the blood test result. Dr.Noraini explained to me few things about the test and I am so "bersyukur" that everything is okay. Alhamdulillah.
Then the doctor asked me if i want the baby pic and i said "yes"... my little baby is sooooo tiny. My baby's sex? belum nampak lagi. Maybe when i'm 20 weeks pregnant baru nampak kot. Currently i'm at 14 weeks...2 more weeks to 4 months..hehe.
*pic:gonna upload it later*
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Mommy's story Part 1: the cramps
Dear blog,
I am now 3++ months pregnant. I am glad that so far, my pregnancy have not yet face any complications.Alhamdulillah. Only minor cramps on my left thigh and pain during my urination. It really sucks, and the feeling is very unpleasant. Despite of the unpleasant feelings, i am actually calm even though i may be a bit emotional.
Cravings? Not many. In fact i lost my appetite and rarely eats. I ate, but in a very small portion. I am now quite picky on food. If the food is not the food that i want, I'll just put the food aside and refuse to eat it.
Me and my husband spends most of our times chatting,laughing and having fun. My relationship with my sisters turned out sour. Luckily my husband is there to cheer me up. The love of my life!
To me, December is like a long journey ahead. The end of every year. The month where people are getting ready to face the new year. The month I am going to deliver this baby. I really hope the calculation is correct. My EDD is going to be on the 17th of Dec 2009. My 2009 baby.My precious.Our love.
I am excited.Yes! I am.
I am now 3++ months pregnant. I am glad that so far, my pregnancy have not yet face any complications.Alhamdulillah. Only minor cramps on my left thigh and pain during my urination. It really sucks, and the feeling is very unpleasant. Despite of the unpleasant feelings, i am actually calm even though i may be a bit emotional.
Cravings? Not many. In fact i lost my appetite and rarely eats. I ate, but in a very small portion. I am now quite picky on food. If the food is not the food that i want, I'll just put the food aside and refuse to eat it.
Me and my husband spends most of our times chatting,laughing and having fun. My relationship with my sisters turned out sour. Luckily my husband is there to cheer me up. The love of my life!
To me, December is like a long journey ahead. The end of every year. The month where people are getting ready to face the new year. The month I am going to deliver this baby. I really hope the calculation is correct. My EDD is going to be on the 17th of Dec 2009. My 2009 baby.My precious.Our love.
I am excited.Yes! I am.
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