Dear blog,
I can't help myself but burst to tears when i saw Wawak lying on the bed motionless. I knew deep down inside that she can't make it this time. The Wawak i knew, never quit without struggling. But this time, it's her time. She's a fighter tapi Allah S.W.T mungkin lebih menyayangi dia. Aku duduk di kerusi sebelah katil Wawak dan terus baca surah Yasin. At this point of time, there's nothing anyone can do except for praying. Setiap kematian adalah dugaan bagi yang masih hidup di dunia ini....
But...
some people expect miracles to happen.They refuse to accept the reality even though dah terpampang depan mata.Siapa yang boleh terima bila seseorang yang kita sayang pergi buat selama2nya? No one. Tapi sebagai umat Islam, kita kena redha. Walau pahit mana sekalipun, kita harus telan.
When i was there, i had few chats with some of my relatives and kebanyakannya kata yang Wawak punya condition improves, her heart beat dah normal..this and that. But the fact is (Abang Putra told us the truth what the doctor have told him about Wawak's condition), Wawak is not improving at all. They all said that just to comfort themselves and they refused to understand. I can't blame them for that. Bila diorang kata macam tu jer, aku pun just nod and kept quiet. I just don't want to hurt them by telling them the truth about Wawak's condition coz i don't want to create any misunderstanding, even Abang Putra was being accused of wanting her own mother to pass away earlier because Abang Putra dah carikan tapak perkuburan untuk Wawak. Hmmm..they're just too sad and confused.
Aku pun tak tahu nak kata apa.Hari ni masuk hari ke-2 Wawak survive on life support machine. The doctor told abang putra that without the life support wawak mungkin tak akan dapat survive..and for them to cabut the life support pun kena ada consent from Wawak's husband. I'm very very sad because aku tak mahu wawak terseksa lagi....let her go peacefully...
date: 14/06/09 ...
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