Mommy's story part 18: A cup of coffee would be nice...nice enough to stop my cravings for caffeine...

Selamat bersahur and berpuasa...

I want coffee but i know it is not good to drink coffee/caffeine during pregnancy...but just a sip or two, wouldn't do any harm to me.

Right at this moment i feel like i want to puke.I can feel a severe feling of heartburn and ooppss! i just farted..haha! believe me,for all of you out there who have not experience pregnancy before,one day you'll know.When you're pregnant you tend to fart a lot! and it is not very pleasant i tell you but when you're pregnant and you farted, it is very normal.My husband is trying to get use to me farting..haha! I love my husband a lot! he he.. :D

Constant urination is one of the very normal thing happens to pregnant moms.When you are pregnant, toilet is your best friend.As for me, i drink lots of fluid especially water and i don't drink soda/cordial or any sweet drinks during my pregnancy.I do drink milo or ribena once in a while.

Ciggies.Oh how i sometimes crave for that.For health reasons and this baby,i stop smoking.In fact,i don't really like the smell of ciggies during my pregnancy especially the smell of Dunhill/Marlboro red...

I just hope i have a strong will after i gave birth...

Back ache.This one sucks!it is so uncomfortable and tiring.I can hardly sleep at all sometimes and it makes me upset.

i guess that's all...hmmm..maybe i'll make a small cup of coffee during break fast today :)

Mommy's story part 17: My bro-in-law went back to Glasgow & Merdeka

30/08/2009 Saturday

My bro-in-law went back to Glasgow.It is sad to see my sister & baby yusuff stood there saying their goodbyes to Feizal (my sister's husband).This time i think it's not going to be long coz my sister is going back to Glasgow before the year ends...after Raya most probably.*sigh*...our house will not be the same without baby yusuff's shrieks and laughters.We are going to miss that a lot! especially my mom coz she's quite close with baby yusuff (taking care of baby yusuff most of the time).I'm going to miss my sis and baby yusuff too,but i know they have a lot of things ahead of them that needed to be settled.Let them do whatever that's needed to be done and hopefully in 2 or 3 years time they'll be able to settle everything there and come back to Malaysia for good.
Here's some pictures that i took at the airport:



Today 31/08/2009 MERDEKA!

I don't know about you but to me it seems like Merdeka this year is not so 'meriah'.Maybe because it falls during the fasting month.I don't know.I thought it is going to be a blast out there.I don't have the feeling to celebrate Merdeka at all...don't get me wrong,it is not because i hate merdeka eve's or it is a cliche to celebrate Merdeka,i do appreciate Merdeka and because of my condition and the condition of the road and situation out there make me feel that its best to celebrate it at home.You know what i did, i watched movies on youtube with my husband and when the clock struck 12 midnight,we were like...ohh its merdeka and look outside the window to see if there's any big fireworks out there.We heard people shouting merdeka and i don't know what else...adalah.It is quiet...so quiet that it makes me wonder,is it Merdeka?
Oh and the merdeka advertisement this time sucks big time! Since our PM emphasizes on 1 Malaysia, i think they should at least inject the spirits of 1 malaysia into this year merdeka advertisment.The merdeka ad that i saw is so cliche and BORING.If yasmin ahmad was still alive,i bet the ad will be superb and memorable.

Well,i finished Surah Yusuf today and i'm so glad.We did 'tahlil' for our late father.Usually i will read surah Yasin everyday for my late father...may Allah SWT bless his soul..Amin.

Anyways,MERDEKA to all! and Salam Ramadhan...

Mommy's story part 16: A very funny story (less important...)

I am absolutely thrilled to know a person who doesn't even realize their own fault.Well, they do admit it's theirs,but then again as usual, 1 finger pointing at them and the rest to the person who has done nothing but to help them.They do take things for granted,don't they? I don't want to elaborate much here.It is just enough to make me realize how some friends might turn to foe in a blink of an eye.As for me, a good friend will never do things to hurt a friend unless if that person has some kind of intention or simply want to run away from obligations.Some people take things way to easy they didn't even realize it.They are like "it's not me...it's them...it's not my fault..they should understand"...this kind of people is just a waste of time.Grow up and learn how to be responsible instead of asking charity from people.They expect people to understand them but they refuse to understand others.Takperlah, you want to do this,go ahead...you think you're being forced to explain when actually that's what you should do but refuse to,it's okay...you said that i accused you?of what?you should know better that it's true...come on,if you're in my place you'd do the same thing or maybe you're too busy thinking that it is us that should understand your condition?ohhh comeeee onnnn!!!give me a break!!!

i'm not the one who ruin this friendship.you're just a burden to us.You know what,i just want to be happy and you people are messing it.just fuck off and have a happy life ahead of you.I wish you good luck and all the best in whatever you do.I don't regret to lose a friend like you.

malas lah mo layan org mcm ni...a waste of time..again,i'll just do what i should do...no more compromise...

tata! :)

Mommy's story part 16: Break Fast at Putrajaya Seafood Restaurant

Located at Taman Botani,the view and the landscape of the place is just enough to make one relax their mind while eating a scrumptous meal.I can say that this restaurant is suitable for family gathering,anniversary or a dinner for two for a couple to spend their time.We had few places in mind before we choose this place.Finally after a few thoughts, we voted out putrajaya seafood restaurant.
My sister, tiqah called and made a reservation for 7 pax.So,we weren't that worried if we came in late.Anyways,to make this story short,me,my hubby,mom and sis tiqah went there first while the rest came in later.
The food was yummy except for their tom yam.It's a bit of a turn off i may say.You should try the kangkong goreng belacan and stirred chicken with cashew nuts...it is simply delicious!We were served with 3 different kinds of drinks (orange juice,teh tarik and plain water).Oh wait...before we actually eat our meal,we decided to pray first but you know what, in their 'bilik sembahyang' there's no 'telekung' provided.I think they should at least place a set or two of 'telekung' for the convenience of their muslim customers.I ended up Qada' my maghrib because there's no telekung for me to wear.
Overall i can give a 7 out of 10.Seriously the tom yam tak sedap!

Later on we went home,got ready and off we went to Rambo's studio to take a family picture....

Mommy's story part 15: Detail scan..done

I wasn't in the right mood today.Well,last night i slept quite late and woke up quite early.I had 4 hours of sleeping and that makes my mood even worse.I was feeling very sleepy this morning.
Today is my appointment for the Detail Scan.Honestly,i was feeling neither nervous nor happy.Must be because i only slept for 4 hours.Okay,anyways,the appointment's at 9a.m and around 8 a.m,believe it or not,i was still on the bed with my laptop,too lazy to take a shower.I felt like i want to just lie on the bed,browsing the net or sleep.My hubby,my dearest dearest hubby thought the appointment was on friday and guess what,he didn't inform the human resource people that he'll be taking a day off today.I already told him the appointment is on the 26th of August and he simply thought it was on friday.He said,i'm the one who told him it's on friday...yada yada yada...whatever lah sayang.Well,maybe i said it's on friday...hmm i can't really recall.My hubby had to go and see them today to pass the photostated appointment card to them and filled in the leave form with it attached to it.My hubby even went to see his GM to get his signature of approval.If he had informed about it earlier,he wouldn't have to go through all the hassle.Anyways,it is not a big a deal pun.
So,my hubby drove us (me and my mom) to Az-Zahrah in Bangi.The weather was so calm today.Very windy as if it's about to rain but it's not.That's what i call a lovely day!We reached there around 9:15am and there were no parking space available.My hubby dropped us off and he went looking for available parking space.Me and my mom went straight up to the first floor and registered for the appointment.
The queue was tremendously long.So many preggers were there sitting and waiting for their turns.Some i saw were talking to their husbands,some are just too lazy to talk and watch the tele instead,others are either sleeping or staring blankly at everyone who passes by or reading the newspaper.
Not long after that i called my husband and he said he had parked the car and he's heading to where we were now.I hung up and waved at mom,giving her a signal to sit beside me.
Well,since i wasn't in the mood to talk neither to do anything else (like there's anything for me to do there),i took a short nap.
Then,after a long wait,finally the nurse called my name.All the three of us went inside the doctor's room and to my surprise,it's not Dr.Noraini but Dr.Ensen (i think i spelled it wrongly but who cares anyways,it still sounds the same).The detail scan took less than 30 minutes i think.The detail scan is actually to check whether the baby has any complications involving the heart,kidney and so on and so forth.It was a wonderful experience.I saw my own baby and the face has already fully formed.What a lovely lovely baby.We counted the baby's fingers and toes.Syukur alhamdulillah everything is okay.The doctor even measured the eye distance,head,thigh and other parts of the baby's body.I can even see the baby moves and i tell you,the baby is moving around all the time.Such an active baby and i love my cute little baby to bits.Can't wait to hold my baby in my own arms.
I got a surprise from the doctor.She told me Dr.Noraini may wrongly determine the EDD (expected due date) for my delivery.After a thorough check up from Dr.Ensen it is now confirmed that i'm going to give birth on the 1st of December this year.WOW!!! 3 more months!!! :) i'm so excited!!! Because i'm too excited i forgot to ask the doctor about what she meant by my placenta is too low?I don't know whether this is normal or not or is it harmful to me?i guess i have to see Dr.Noraini and ask her about it on my next appointment which is on the 15th of sept.
After th check up we went straight home.I told them i'm too lazy to follow them to the 'pasar' and let my hubby and mom jer yg pergi.and i asked my hubby to buy me a McDonald-double cheese burger :) he he...harini tak puasa ler ;P

that's all for today...more updates to come

tooodddllesss!

Mommy's story part 14: i can feel the kicking is getting stronger (24 weeks a.k.a 6 months)

My dearest baby in my belly is moving quite frequently now.The kicking is getting stronger and stronger each day and i tell you, i'm so excited i nearly cried.This is the joy of being pregnant.You'd be able to feel your own little baby inside your womb.Eventhough it can be sucks at times coz i have to deal with all the pains but you know what, it worth every pains.
Currently, i do feel the tightening under my belly and that's because my belly is getting bigger.I can see visible stretch marks (dammit!)on my belly and i'm religiously applying palmer body lotion all over my belly to make the stretch marks look less visible. My back aches a lot!!! plus my buttocks too!!! Pimples starts growing on my cheeks.Not that 'teruk' pun but still it upsets me.I feel so tired all the time,hungry and sleepy too bacause my little baby needs all the nutrients for the rapid growth.It is Ramadhan and after i made few researches, i feel it is safe to go on fasting (selagi larat).It's day 2 of fasting and so far so good.What else? oh yeah, i got very sensitive as in very very sensitive until up to a point it bothers me a lot.i'm very emotional and yes, i do cry a lot during this pregnancy.It is not that easy to cope with your emotional instability.I have thought of this and that and how ones word affect me tremendously.There were times (before i reach the 2o weeks)i just feel like i don't want to get pregnant and want to get rid of this baby.it is sad,but that's what i've had gone through.Those were just me being emotional.Eventhough i didn't have a terrible morning sickness like puking every single minute/hour,i do get very tired and emotional.Some said, oh you're so lucky you didn't have to get all fussed up with vomits and all...yes i am lucky but trust me,it is hard to deal with emotion that swings like a bloody hurricane! Anyways,i love this baby to bits and won't do anything to harm this gift from Allah SWT in my belly.In fact i am soooooooo excited to meet my baby this december :).
My hubby just told me that he wants to go back for a day to visit his granny in melaka during fasting time.I don't know,i just hope the weather is just right...not too hot.I am very tamperamental and grouchy during hot days...

Well,i'm going to update again when i reach week 25 alright.

till then peeps...

toodlllessss.......

Mommy's story part 13: I love my dear Mommy

You know, i'm quite fragile during this pregnancy.I'm easily moved,hurt...etc.It is not easy to be a mom especially when during pregnancy.There's so many obstacles that you have to face; either it is from the stupid judgement from certain shallow minded people or the cramps or the cravings or the rapid increase in weight or etc etc...*sigh* it is a TOUGH job indeed!

I called it a CHALLENGE.A tough one! and i have to face it all alone. There were times when i was so sad i nearly felt like crying. It is not easy.Yesterday, during my beloved nephew's aqiqah, one of our close relative came up to me and said "You are a perfect woman when you're pregnant and a mother".Her words means a lot to me.Plus she's a mother of 5. A mother is a blessing from Allah S.W.T and so does a child.I'm blessed to have a mother like my own mother now; despite the quarells,arguments, i still love her very much.

I know how lonely and sad she is after my late father passed away.I'd give everything as long as my mother feels happy.And i'd do anything to make sure of that.

-to be continued-

Mommy's story part 12: Charisma

Hello peeps,

I stumbled upon a very interesting video by TEDxKL and that is a speech given by Yasmin Ahmad.

Mommy's story part 10: just like old times

Dear blog,

today like any other uninteresting day, i waited for my husband to come back from work. It is a usual routine for me to wait for him to come back. At least during pregnancy. Well, we went to KL..yada yada yada....nothing much to tell.

Anyways, i had plans to meet up with my old mate from school today. She's going to drop by after attending a wedding ceremony held in Saujana Impian,Kajang. Unfortunately, she wrongly read the time of the event.Instead of noon ,it is actually in the evening.She texted me and suggested to meet up around 10 pm and i decided to chat at my place coz tak larat nak keluar malam2 ni.
It's been quite some time i didn't meet up with her...almost a year i think.The last time we met was during my wedding reception. Well, we did some catch ups and it reminds me of our old times when we used to be roommates. Some news came to me as a shock and some i found it earlier on the net or by some friends.
It's 1 am and it's too late already to continue our chit chats since my hubby pun dah ngantuk2 tunggu (dia risau and tak nak i kunci pintu and set alarm sorang2). We said our goodbyes and made another plan to meet up some other day lagi......

Mommy's story part 8: The life itself...

Dear blog,

what life has to offer us?our life is too short for our needs and wants.I'd rather spend the rest of my life worry-free than fret out of nothing at all. Appreciate life as how life has appreciate us. Some people may curse life and said life sucks.Is it fair to blame it on life itself rather than themself? i did once cursed my fate and wish i can be re-borned again. I was being selfish and immature back then. I wasted partial of my life doing absolutely nothing and yes, i do regret it a lot until now.

And now, as life presents the most beautiful thing ever in front of my eyes, i feel very blessed. Thank you Allah S.W.T for everything that you have given me. Eventhough there were times when i was so angry and one of the reason was because You have taken the person we all adored and loved. With just short notice you took him away from us forever. We are mortals and every mortals has to go back to where they belong to someday. I do understand that and I have to be 'redha' with everything that you have planned for us and i know there's always 'hikmah' behind every plans that you've made. But me,as a normal human being who have feelings and sometimes too over driven with emotions tend to disobey You but never ever turn my back against you.

Anyway, at this moment, i can feel the tiny kick(s) in my belly. Every tiny kick(s) i felt in my belly makes me smile and overjoyed with endless love. I had an appointment with my gynae today,Dr.Noraini, and to my surprise i am now 22 weeks! how time flies.I still remembered when i first found out about my pregnancy, i was quite shocked actually and it seems like yesterday i got to know about it. Never in my mind occured that i'm going to be pregnant this soon. It's like 3 months after our wedding! But i feel very blessed and 'bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi' for this wonderful gift. This wonderful gift doesn't come easy you know.You have to deal with a lot of emotional swings,morning sickness,sloppiness and etc etc which is very uncomfortable and common. I remembered feeling angry and happy at the same time, crying with no reason at all, worrying about things that i shouldn't be worrying and loads of other things that some people may find it awkward. Some may not understand how the pregnant women feel(s). I tell you, it is not that easy and a tough task(s) to deal with. All that will go away when you feel the light tingling sensation in your belly (kicks). It's undescribable.I can feel the kicking getting stronger and stronger each month. i'm too excited to meet with my dear baby this December.Wish me all the best yah *winks* ;)

Well, the life itself has a lot to offer. Embrace it and make a full use of it coz life is too short for too many decisions on how to handle your own life. Grab the opprtunity and turn it into something worthy!