A year now ...

My father...

he was a good father.A good father to us and a good husband.We all are very proud of him.He was a hardworking man and never even once he complaints or whines.He was always a loud and cheerful person,very friendly too.Whenever he goes, he make new friends.He loves to share his experiences in life with others and also a good listener for those who are in need of a good advice.We love him so much and misses him a lot.Without him, life is not the same.Our Hari Raya is not the same anymore...everything seems new and awkward with him nowhere in sight.

The memories of him will never fade.I knew i was a stubborn and rebellious child and i even said words that hurt him so much.I never meant it.It is just words slipped out from my mouth.I remembered hugging him and I said sorry for saying all those harsh words and he just kept quiet.And then when he walked away and i noticed a glimpse of tears flowing down from the corner of his eyes.I know i made a lot of mistakes and reggretted it.If only i can turn back time...but it is too late...

A year he left us and it seems like yesterday we sat on the new couch and took Hari Raya picture together.A year passes by so fast.I miss my dad...we miss him a lot.


"Ya Allah! Ampunkanlah dosanya dan tempatkanlah dia bersama dengan orang2 yang beriman.Kesihanilah arwah ayahandaku sepertimana dia mengasihani kami semasa kami kecil.Ya Allah! cucurilah rahmat ke atas rohnya.Amin!"

eventhough he has now gone far away, but he still remains close in our hearts...

Mommy's story part 21: 31 weeks!!! wohooooooo!!!

In less than 2 months i am going to be a MOMMY! i'm so excited and i don't know how to desribe the exact feeling that i'm feeling right now.Despite of the back ache,fatigue,crampings...i'm happy!

It is going to be different after this.No more the two of us,it is going to e the three of us.I've selected few names for the baby but i still haven't narrow it down to one name yet.I guess to choose a name for a baby girl is harder than choosing a name for a baby boy.Anyways, i'm going to shop for baby clothes this weekend and few other things that i need after giving birth.My life's a bliss at the moment and i don't want to spoil it.I don't want any negativity to be around me.I don't want to waste my time dealing with it.

I hope everyting is okay...